Tuesday, July 24, 2007 5:00 AM
just finished watching 1 litre of tears(based on true story i supposed-did see the real girl's photos after the drama), a Japanese drama which i supposed to watch since last year. Did not watch partly because i am afraid i will cry a lot after watching that. But accidentally saw it on Channel56 just now when i was doing my management assignment. and indeed, its saddening.read here for more about the drama感想は：why i lived till 20 years old still don't know what i want? its sad to see people trying hard to live each and everyday, while i am just idling through my life. i have high expectations in myself. and yet, i did not or had not strive to do my very best... compared to people like 木藤亜也 ,Aya Kito. everyday is an EMO for me, taking everyone for granted. yah, maybe there are people who had taken me for granted too.
i was thinking... since i can give my prawns and fish balls away(i eat, but i rather give someone who appreciate more than i do). can i give my life away? since its a waste live just to use up resources. sadly, i couldn't. that's why i am still here. still thinking about my future. blank blank. but if i am from a rich family, i will donate myself to the charity, working as volunteer to help those who are longing to live. but too bad, i am from a poor family and the whole family depends on my papa's $1600 every month. and to think my ITT lecturer said he will not be able to survive if he is not able to earn $10000 a month. life is funny, isn't it? people dying trying hard to live, while people living finding ways to die. the rich gets richer while the poor will always get poorer.
Still, there are some miracles like Joanne "Jo" Rowling She was a poor single mama before her first publish of HP. but maybe its that she had her goals for life, that's why shes doing great now. So, before people commit suicide, why don't they go spend their life working as a volunteer to help others till the day they die. Or maybe they can go donate their organs than crashing them from high storeys. Humans are selfish. INDEED. i am one too.
