Saturday, March 31, 2007 4:32 AM
i hate mood swing...
i hate mood swing...
i hate to have no where to go...
hate to go back home early..
hate people to eye on me at home..
hate to become broken..
hate to see myself in the mirror when i'm having mood swing..
hate the brightness of the screen of the monitor even though i had adjust it to the lowest..
hate myself as a girl..
hate myself if i am a boy..
hate myself for not being just an animal..
hate myself taking cab after walking for so long...
hate myself for being stupid...
hate myself...
hate my spending ability..
hate everything that is happening around me when i don't feel good..
hate the ending point always seems like never ending..
hate that i have my parents around, and i love them too much..
hate the existence of male and female...
hate that everybody has their own thinking...
hate that i don't know what people around me is thinking..
hate this f*@kin laptop keyboard.. i am pressing out the letters instead of typing!
k... done wif my mood swing... shld be ok liao ba? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. i wanted to do this at the bus stop in town just now.. haix...
lost a earbud todae..
sales at least not that bad todae.
ninja turtles still not tt bad..
but seymin goes bad jux now.
can i grab someting and slam on the floor...? i inherit these genes from my dad..
Wednesday, March 28, 2007 10:42 PM
went for sakae buffet in wheelock.. wif py, yan, jason, kw n jw.. dun rmb myself eatin alot.. but was rather full la.. not very full either la.. dunno la.. den there was a crew dere, tot i used to werk in sakae de.. diaox.. both mi n peiye find him familiar oso.. so mux be play bball de liao.. end up after some sortin out, e guy said he come buy clothes from mi in causeway point... not bad.. so some trading between us la.. he gif us free drinks n some mochi. n i will gif him a 15% off if he comes buy clothes from mi la.. but chances of givin him e disc is lowwww.. cux i gonna go poly soon liao... (hopefully can get in, n lookin forward to get in)
after sakae, py went to werk. left wif 5. they go play billiard.. i go slp.. den slp liao wake up jiu EMO... very de sian.. go cedele buy cake, oso dun find e cake fresh... den realise i left wif oni $5.. went makan again.. i din eat la. den jiu go hm liao.. tk 502 den i rot at e busstop... sian.. recently dun feel lyk gg home early.. but oreadi nua at yans hse ystd liao.. so cnnt make it a 习惯.. ya... so after some clownin acts at e bus stop jiu go hm le.. n i spend e rest of my $$ tk cab hm.. funny... bankrupt liao... ^^
2:09 PM
went yans hse ton.. actualli wanna format my sd card. end up jason n yan play dota. i read my novel.. kuku de...
n now gg makan sushi.......!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am late liao... but i still wanna let u guys noe tt.. yan is a UNoob
i win yan UNO
3-0
yan is a UNoob!
Tuesday, March 27, 2007 1:38 AM
todaes a big day for mi.. cux...
3D cardboard hockey
min VS jason
4 - 0
played basketball, hockey, baseball, "hit e target", and dunno still got wat liao.. n most importantly, all e game equipments r made by jason.. big diaox...
la teh session @651 was on todae. everyone is present.. and someone is overly horribly extremely very HIGH.. dunno hu leh.. high all e way from 651 til on the way home.. if i din rmb wrongly, she begin her "highness" with e song of 响叮当，响叮当， 响叮当~~~~~~~~
den i aizaily walk home from yans block.. i am a professional walker.. took almost 35min of walkin to reach hm.. hehe.. lalala...
Monday, March 26, 2007 1:16 AM
offday de time always flies very fast de.. ><" went to slp at 11 or 12pm.. waken up by my 904 at 5+, den slp again. den while its still 5+, jason msg sae he very slpy, so ask mi go over CWP visit him.. aga aga jiu noe he wan mi go cover his shift, so he can slp in peace.. haha.. k la.. cux its my fault to hai him lack of slp.. but jio yan go wif mi den kena reject.. cum still got abit de sleepy.. jiu tell jason i slp awhile more den go find him la.. den my 904 ring ring again.. alarm la.. was bz shifting left right left right on my bed. 903 & 904 r both hang right above of my head. which makes it on top of my bed. was totally awake by e "shifting of my body" so went out to litchen to look for food, as my little bro told mi got plenty of food on e table.. he said it fascinatedly de... happily, curiously, hungrily i reach e dinning table, and i found only carriers with gift vouchers and plenty of breadssssssss.. sian dao.. so deceide to set off to vist jason n meiling.
reach CWP, sales isnt good.. din do much dere. jason end up oso din sleep. after werk jiu went 651 lateh wif yan n jason.. kw dun wanna go. n shuhua papa ate a bomb.. so ..... and from dere, my offday comes to an end... nao hia....(quote from yan.. his werds alwaes very "influenciable")
*(904 ring= alarm.. 903 ring=phone call/msg)
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thinkin about futures.. and seeing so many of my friends losing their ways after graduating from poly.. maybe e routes they can choose are wider than students in JC. diploma can go straight to werk, go U(private or govt), advance diploma, go overseas, sign on, and all bla bla bla.. and everyone is afrid of making the wrong decision. especially the guys, cux of the existance of NS.. what i can say is just do the very best you can in ur studies now. i know i dont have the right to talk so much about all this.. i am nothin.. din even finish my poly, and din even know wat to do for my future for this very moment.. waiting for my DAE posting. to think back... i had so called wasted 3yrs of my life in doing sales retail.. if i had not withdraw from NP, i would be the batch graduating in 1 or 2 months time.. did not regret on the decision i have made. my results definitely stinks if i actually continue my studies. its something to do with adaptation. well, its over liao... but i just dunno y i took 3years to find myself.. lucky i am a girl.. i have no more time to waste from now. papa mama r not young liao.. 45 this year. papa is somehow the breadwinner in e family.. come to think of it, papa will be already 48 when i graduate from poly. not that old, but papa not werkin office de. will tired de. if possible, i realli wish that i can get a job which enable mi to support my whole family.. but seriously, i got to do something to decrease my spending ability.. haix.. but now gotta find a part time job which allows mi to earn $800 a month. i realli dun wish to use a single cent of my mama n papa in e whole of my life from now. jux dun wanna be a burden when i am e eldest in the family.
Sunday, March 25, 2007 9:29 AM
hmmm.. off todae, force jason yan n jw to stay overnite in xinwang.. py went hm for slp as shes werkin ltr.. feel abit bad to jason liao.. cux super slpy.. imagine he still gotta werk ltr in cwp todae.. but i everytym oso lyk tt la.. got fren dun wan slp.. chat abt past n e future.. diaox...
watched BEAN liao.. funny.. no common sense de, nearly vomit blood at e very beginnin of the movie.. but its a nice movie for ppl to relax la.. laf at e stupidity, and e kukuness..
gg slp liao.. if not dunno wat tym can wake up ltr... hopefully ltr can wake up earlier so i wun slp my offday away... yawnx yawns... good nite le.. n its 937am now.. haix..
e new phrase i learn today..
丢你妈的奶头包
丢你妈的牛奶包
丢你妈的牛奶头
Saturday, March 24, 2007 1:52 AM
Friday, March 23, 2007 7:02 AM
idiots... aLL slp liao.. buay zai de... den e pic still cnnt upload.. kuku...went pool den 651 la teh wif yan kw n jason.. tapao bak chor mee for shuhua after tt.. den mi n jason headed to yans hse... rot.. oso dunno do wat.. den i went hm for some reason, n came bac yans hse again.. after tt jason jiu kisiao liao.. yans laptop realli a lagtop... bth.. photoshop dunno shop hw long sia... watch yule100fen100.. den they jiu slp liao.. ps... jason slp earlier den tt.. they 2 loving.. can share a single bed slp almost whole nite.. yan nv bath jiu slp... babi...
Thursday, March 22, 2007 12:08 AM
recently kip hanging out wif my clique.. realli enjoy e tyms wif them.. especially when jason n kaiwen is back wif us which haf mi include(wha my english very gd). dere was a tym when all of them r skoolin, i am werkin, i totalli cnnt reach dem.. tym clash, den even get to go out i oso EMO.. end up its lyk betta to stay at hm den to go out.. to mi, our friendship is lyk gt nearly 1year de空窗期. almost empty. and i dunno how i manage to get back to this clique? maybe shld feel lucky to find dem back.. though 1 now got no gf, 1 is whahaha, n 1 pompipi, n oso nv forget e spartans siao for e moment, all e kukus, all e 痴s, they r my beloved frens la.. though everytym oni tok cock, u all play pool, i stand 1 side. u all cycle, i stand 1 side. i might not even get to share some of ur problems, but i jux noe u guys de existance is oreadi dere, deep deep in my pig heart. jux hope we can still be lyk tis in future. even in e 3s' de NS daes, n oso even after part of e other 3s de graduations next yr, n even if i can get to poly anot. jux kip on la tehin, la miloin, la horlickin, la coffeein(tis sounds so 不对）...
Wednesday, March 21, 2007 11:35 PM
i wanna blog.. many tings to blog.. but i lazy to... too long to type.. hard to phrase in nice terms.. lalala.. rotx.. tml off for nthn.. cnnt blame anyone.. i kuku.. rots at hm finish all my j dramas.. but no venezia ice cream liao.. wha... jitao not rite.. nvm.. tml mornin go buy ben n jerry.. oh, let mi rot n fat n die n decompose n.... farked.. i got a strong feelin tt if i stay at hm tml, mama will start her naggin.. dunno which module she will be lecturin tml... but i doubt i wun be interested in any. lalalla.. tink i bring lappy go McDonalds watch jdrama liao.. tml is a very 不对的一天..
todae had a good tok wif chooihar.. deres too much misunderstoods btwn cheechew n her.. e misunderstanding sank deeper n deeper while they were havin coldwar. wats e conclusion?? HUMANs ＷOＲＤＳ KILL!!! 80% of misunderstandings + e 20% of some attitude prob n pride=stupidity? i dunno la.. both har n chew r not really tt pissed wif each other.. part of it is 面子's prob.. n i concluded tt e main part of it is tt siewean had been a 墙头草 cum 2-headed snake all this while(i doubt siewean noes tt she had cause all tis stupid tings, cux she owaes dunno wat shes saein, n blablabla...)
will har n chew regains their friendship? stay tuned.. i free n gt mood den update u..
8:02 AM
yawnssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.. i wanna slp..
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Tuesday, March 20, 2007 1:04 AM
was werkin wif irene at CWP todae... tyms n e sales crawling together.. rots.. din go anywhere after werk. now bloggin. over 12am liao. means todae off leh.. but no plannin for e moment. c ltr wat tym i wake up.. my legs todae super 酸, lie down still feelin so suan..
was doing some psychology tests few daes ago.. owaes having problems doing such tests.. e so called MCQ , either NONE of e answer suits my ideal one, or ALL e answers r similar to wat i will react. worst of all, i sometyms find e question n e answer not clearly stated, den i jiu cnnt answer liao leh...
EG,
wat is e position u will be at when u r on a very comfy sofa?
1) sit up straight, wif feets on floor.
2) curl urself up at e corner of e sofa.
3) lie on e sofa lyk dead body..
4) sittin on e sofa wif ur back lying on e back of e sofa as of u haf no backbone.
ya.. i will choose all leh.. if die die wan mi eliminate, i will tk out e 1st one.. but for 2,3,4............. jitao diaox.. e qns oni gif mi info on e sofa.. but nv tell mi wat am i suppose to do on e sofa leh.. scali in front of e sofa got tv?! i will tk 4.. but if e weather is cold, i will curl myself up, tk 2. if i 不小心 fall aslp, i most prob will choose 3 liao.. so hu can tell mi where is e setter of tis kuku psycology qns..
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i wan go massage... or can someone do karate on mi ar?
Sunday, March 18, 2007 2:38 PM
come back from werk.. i din go anywhere after werk todae.. its a saturdae leh!!!!!!!!!! OMG.. super nt use to it... wan go lateh, since everyone had oreadi broke liao.. but cux jason gg mit yiling, so jiu cancel off le... actualli i oso not hungry at all la... lol.. jux not 爽 to go home on sat nite.. lol... psychology problem.. its a sin for mi to stay at home on saturdae nite.. i will not haf my peace online when my half of my family members r awake.. kuku de, lets drop e topic..
todae at werk in bugis.. late a little as usual.. super slpy... slp half an hr at hm after jw bdae celebration. i sat on e floor wif my head lying on e leopard cushioned sofa.. fell aslp.. lol.. boss eric come.. pengx... kena cot.. ask mi tired ar? i sae ya.. he ask ystd go out chiong ar? i say ya.. （i went for movie n pool oni leh）he ask mi go inside changing room to slp.. lol.. shiok.. i did tt rite after he left.. n slp soundly for nearly 2hrs.. hee..^^
dear shuhua YOYO to mi when i sign in my msn.. a blood vomitin conversation wif her...
` e zann _ says:
yoyo !!!
⑭◆↑ひとりのせかい↓◆Ｎ年后=？→ Ö（｀～´）» ←-→到底多久 says:
yooo
` e zann _ says:
ur blog?
http://akuiyo.blogspot.com
⑭◆↑ひとりのせかい↓◆Ｎ年后=？→ Ö（｀～´）» ←-→到底多久 says:
no
` e zann _ says:
thenthen?
⑭◆↑ひとりのせかい↓◆Ｎ年后=？→ Ö（｀～´）» ←-→到底多久 says:
lol
` e zann _ says:
loL!
⑭◆↑ひとりのせかい↓◆Ｎ年后=？→ Ö（｀～´）» ←-→到底多久 says:
akujyo?
j not i
` e zann _ says:
lol!
http://akujyo.blgospot.com
⑭◆↑ひとりのせかい↓◆Ｎ年后=？→ Ö（｀～´）» ←-→到底多久 says:
ya
` e zann _ says:
cannot leh
⑭◆↑ひとりのせかい↓◆Ｎ年后=？→ Ö（｀～´）» ←-→到底多久 says:
ols la
pls*
blogspot leh
` e zann _ says:
yeah saw taht
that
typo.
no work?
⑭◆↑ひとりのせかい↓◆Ｎ年后=？→ Ö（｀～´）» ←-→到底多久 says:
come hm liao la
` e zann _ says:
OH !
wah !
now so late alrdy
⑭◆↑ひとりのせかい↓◆Ｎ年后=？→ Ö（｀～´）» ←-→到底多久 says:
wah!!!!!!!!!!!
y u so blur todae
` e zann _ says:
i online so long then busy busy nvr notice time.
lol
⑭◆↑ひとりのせかい↓◆Ｎ年后=？→ Ö（｀～´）» ←-→到底多久 says:
kuku
` e zann _ says:
pipi. (she sae pipi 1st de. rmb tis pt...)
⑭◆↑ひとりのせかい↓◆Ｎ年后=？→ Ö（｀～´）» ←-→到底多久 says:
babibuuu
` e zann _ says:
sodhwbefgo234 ! (super unknown msg)
lol
⑭◆↑ひとりのせかい↓◆Ｎ年后=？→ Ö（｀～´）» ←-→到底多久 says:
apa ini?
` e zann _ says:
i also dont know.
lol
⑭◆↑ひとりのせかい↓◆Ｎ年后=？→ Ö（｀～´）» ←-→到底多久 says:
kuku.. dun u sae pipi again
` e zann _ says:
why ?pipi? (SHE FORGOT WAT iS PiPi LiAO!!!!!!!)
⑭◆↑ひとりのせかい↓◆Ｎ年后=？→ Ö（｀～´）» ←-→到底多久 says:
wha...
i scare i chat wif u i will vomit blood leh
u scroll up n re read out conversation
` e zann _ says:
lol
no idea.
⑭◆↑ひとりのせかい↓◆Ｎ年后=？→ Ö（｀～´）» ←-→到底多久 says:
ok... kill mi now ba...
` e zann _ says:
STAB U !
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tis shuhua can realli join our lateh cliq liao.. same frequency de.. all equalli idiotic...
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12:06 AM
~HaPPY 20th BiRTHDaY to JiEWei~
was out for dinner to celebrate JW birthdae jux now.. makaned at waraku in Marina Square.. enjoyed ourselves dere.. 7 ppl went for e dinner, n they r JW, yan, sam,mz,kz,joe n mi la.. joe machiam pro, noe everyting abt jap cuisine.. n how to eat fresh sotong when u catch them in e mornin... ... haa.. n last but nt least MZ's order.. THE ToFu.. lazy to explain.. nvm.. den jiu cut cake.. ya.. "e best dessert in e WORLD.." diaox.. quote from MZ again.. ya.. headed to cine to watch movie.. Stomp e Yard.. not a bad one i tink.. but ghim find it meaninless.. forgot to add.. py,jason,ys,wil,ghim join us for e movie.. e waraku guys n ghim went for dota after buyin tix.. mi intend go kino walk walk while waitin for jason n PY.. suayness, kino close so early.. went kopi bean for sunrise, e sunrise nt nice. saddao.. drank oni 2 mouthful. den mit jason go XinWang.. our most frequent n fav cafe recently.. pengx.. had had soooo many curry rice for e past weeks dere.. so decide to order someting diff.. but.. turn out not much diff la.. cux i ordered meesua wif currychix.. lalala.. i prefer e rice.. den movie time.. WOLF, PYTHON, blablabla.. went kopitiam makan after e movie.. i nv eat this tym.. LOL.. after tt when poolin n billiard.. i slp almost e whole poolin session.. n rot during e billard session.. jux wanna enjoy wif my frens.. everytym oso nv play.. okay.. i will learn some other daes ba..
took bus 7 to dhoby gaut. chg 502.. forgot to drop down at boonlay to chg 240.. kuku.. yan tok too much cock wif mi.. ask mi go down i dun wan.. tot 502 will end in boon lay interchange.. act cute la.. end up alight wif yan jason n sam.. lalala.. bo tai ji ce tia ji zo.. happiness..
nv slp again as usual.. lol.. ltr in bugis.. shag n slack.. n moneyless.. llala.. i wan off!!!! n jason having his off dae todae.. hmm.. lookin forward to 20th... n 28th..-hopefulli my sakae buffet will be ON..
Friday, March 16, 2007 7:29 PM
i wan go k box..i wan go sakae buffet..i wan more off days, but i still wan my pay..i wan go tk my jap course..i wan to haf my roomi wan so many tings... this is human act.. 人性? this is wat a 20yr old SHiMiN wan nia la...this stupid world is stupidicalli funny, or i shld sae its hard to define bah.. there r ppl hu r lyk, nv satisfy wif wat they haf. they strive n werk hard for wat they wan all the tym, most get wat they wan in e end, and e new beginning will be starting soon. they start to werk hard again. werk werk werk n werk, werk til they die oso lyk tt. maybe they r satisfied on e very 1st sec when they had gotten wat they wan, OR maybe not.. but at least he or she had achieved someting when he or she is still breathing.. ...on e other hand, there r ppl hu r overly contented wif their lives. no matter to frens, to werk, to family, or even to themselves. as long as they haf $10 in e pocket, they believe they can survive for 3 to 4 daes as long as they makan bread everydae. chin chin chye chye live thru out e life, and go into e soil without leavin anythin, or maybe dey leave debts.... ><"hu e hell or heaven can define or gage(gauge) CONTENTATiON?wha kao.. i am dead.. my brain could NOT get wat my brain is trying to sae..
jux now went town wif yan, his woman, jw n kun.. go dere jux to chill.. haven freeze jiu go hm liao.. haha.. sotx.. this is my life.. rottin n werkin.. ^^
Wednesday, March 14, 2007 4:06 PM
洪诗敏再次到此一笔。。。recently quite alot of tings happen at my werkplace. its none of my business, i am jux lyk 隔岸观火 and onli help when i think is needed.. werk for 3 yrs le, now den i got to noe wat is politics..wat i had learn is tt:---werds from mouth can hurt someone easily. let e brain do e tokin.---its better to let e anger out in some well mannered waes, swallowing e anger will cause e friendship to be lost in anguish eventualli.---believe oni what u had seen n heard from the 1st person. 2nd or 3rd person will nt be able to pass u e 100% truthness info. nt to blame other ppls info, cuz everyone has diff understandin "power", which cause different views n perspectives.. 2nd n 3rd person will normalli tell u their opinion more den wat dey shld tell unknowingly.---nv assume things.. once u assume, it slowly will turn out real in ur own world. assuming something that had nv happen is ridiculousli pathetic, cux u oreadi lose ur own ability to feel e reality.---人人为我，我为人人. if u r nice to ppl, ppl will be nice to u too^^
haa.. kinda lorso.. shall end here.
